More advice

Almost 11 weeks in, there is advice I am given that I know to ignore: 'put honey on her dummy so she takes it' (babies younger than 12 months can pick up botulism from honey - bad idea).

Then there is advice that seems reasonable: 'put a book under the top of your babies mattress to raise the head of gassy babies to help them sleep better'.

But then you do it and wrap the baby and place her in, go to the bathroom, then make a split second decision to check on her before you unpack the groceries, only to find that she's rolled with her head perilously close to the mesh side of the bassinet because of the book.

And the guilt is shit.

And you can't picture it in your mind for fear of what could have happened.

And you wonder when are you going to stop being the stupid mum and be the good mum?